Noah

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 05:39:59 GMT

Everything Anyone Ever Wanted To Know About You
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The Basic Stuff
Name?	Cory L Hyman
Age?	21
Height?	6'2"
Weight?	224
Birthday?	June 14th 1983
Birthplace?	Brooklyn!
Current Location?	New Jersey
School/Grade?	4th grade!
Zodiac Sign?	Gemini
Chinese Zodiac Sign?	Who gives a shit
Righty or Lefty?	Mostly Righty
Haircolor?	Black
Eyecolor?	hazel
Skin Color?	White...White..White
About You
What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc)?	Me and the Rents
Any Pets?	Just the snake
If So What Are They?
Favorite Relative?	My Aunt Fay
Least Favorite Relative?	My Grandfather
What's Your Heritage/Race?	Scotch-Irish
Political Affilation?	Me
Love & Sex
Sexuality?	Alycia
Are You In A Relationship Now?	Yes..
If So, With Whom?	ALYCIA
For How Long?	thats a very interesting...well..like 5 months
Are You In Love?	I'm Pretty damn sure
Do You Have A Crush On Anyone?	yeah...Angelina Jolie...Come on over
Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?	nope
How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss?	12...if my memory is not rusty
Virgin?	....I was...ages ago
If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time?	14...
Was It Enjoyable?	yeah, but its awkward when your new to it
What's The Farthest You've Ever Gone?	.....
Where Do You Most Like To Be Kissed?	on the lips
Best Love Quote?	Love as thou Wilt
Your Friends
Best?	SVEN
How Many Do You Have?	well by rough estimation...80
More Guys Or Girls?	Girls
Love Them All?	I love everyone...
Any You Wish You Were Closer To?	Alex
Oldest?	Kenny
Newest?
Pen Pal?	my other personality
Friends And Words: Associate Them
Pen	God
Flower	steve
Pink	cheryl
Window	jon
Heart	steve
Mother	Eva
Bread	Jenna
Insane	Jon
Sunglasses	Amanda
Pimp	Scott
Cross	Shiela
Lonely	Steve
Car	Justin
Music	Steve
This Or That
Boxers or Briefs?	Boxers
Thongs or G-Strings?	Thong
Shorts or Pants?	Shorts
Shoes or Barefeet?	bare
Books or Movies?	books
Night or Day?	night
Dark or Light?	dark
Mountains or Beach?	beach
Snow or Sun?	snow
Pepsi or Coke?	coke
Guys or Girls?	girls
Swim or Surf?	swim
For or Against
Gay Marriage?	For
Abortion?	Maybe
Bush Getting Re-elected?	NO
Suicide?	NO WAY
War?	FUck off
Pants?	yes
Clothes In General?	we should all frolick naked
Penises?	just my own
Favorites
Color?	Blue
Number?	9
Holiday?	Yule
Season?	Winter
Movie?	Hackers
Book?	A light in the Attic
Magazine?	Computer Gamer
Food?	Chicken Parm
Drink?	Beer
TV Show?	Full House
Song?	Anything not rap
Band?	again all non rap
Computer Game?	don't care
Video Game?	couldn't give a shit
Anime/Manga?	Angel Sanctuary
Shirt?	the one I'm wearing
Pants?	does it cover my legs?
Actor?	Sir Anthony Hopkins
Actress?	Angelina Jolie
Singer?	Andrea Bocelli
Flower?	Roses
Scent?	Fresh dew in the morn
Animal?	Wolves
Cookie?	one from Alycia...
The Future
Want To Go To College?	I'm there
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?	Too many different things
Want To Get Married?	Yes
Want To Have Kids?	Yes
What Would Their Names Be?	Kalani, September Rose
How Many?	2
Where Do You Want To Live?	Somewhere Beautiful
Where Do You Want To Get Married?	Somewhere Amazing
How Do You Want To Die?	Not Alone
More Stuff About You
Piercings?	9 ear piercings - Had: Labret, and tongue
Tattoos?	Not Yet
Smoke?	Nope
Drink?	Killians, Yuengling
Do Drugs?	nope
Skinny Dip?	Hell Yea
Greatest Fear?	If I told you...youd never figure it out
Chocolate or Vanilla?	Chocolate
Go To Church?	I'm pagan...so uhh..fuck the church
Religion?	Judeo-Pagan
Scars?	right temple, and my right hand
CDs Owned?	too god damn many
Collections?	swords.
Like To Be Naked?	all the time
Ever Eaten Sushi?	yeah
An Entire Case Of Oreos?	too much cookies
Been On Stage?	yes
Danced In The Rain?	every chance I get
Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex?	yes but does being drunk count
Weirdest Dream?	That my aunt showed up in pajamas, and we had lunch with the devil for High Tea
Best Dream?	all
Saddest Dream?	....
Dream You Most Wish Would Come True?	......
Think You're Attractive?	I'm bloody Gorgeous!
Shoplifted?	probably when I was like 4 or 5
Been Caught "Doing Something"?	yeah
Weirdest Makeout Place?	in the fountain in south hampton park
Like Thunderstorms?	yep
Favorite Shoes?	any that fit my clown feet
Favorite Quote?	We can not choose what happens, but we can choose what to do with the time we have.
Best Advice Given?	I give soo much advice
Worst Advice Given?	Leave now...and never come back
Favorite Song Lyric?	I wanna Fuck you like an Animal
What Quote Says Most About Your Life?	If at first you don't succeed, try, try, try again...
Glad This Is Over?	Yeah now I can talk on the phone
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What a Week...

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 18:47:23 GMT

Well I must say this week has been rather...interesting...I am getting to know a lot of the people that I work with, and some of them are rather fucking hysterical. I'm pretty sure that you can find people like this though at any job, but thats besides the point. Mostly this week I spent reading after work, and sleeping and relaxing...it was a nice change. I've started excercising every morning when I wake up and I am beginning to feel great! This week I think i'll start jogging laps around my development before work...see how that goes. Anyway as for the relaxing and reading thing...if you ever get the chance to and like to read about the fantasy of medieval history strung in with heavy amounts of real history, with a giant twist of raunchiness you should read the three book series: Kushiels Dart, Kushiels Chosen, and Kushiels Avatar...These three books are AMAZING!!! Well time to get ready to go...I'm off to see The Blue Man Group in the city...*hop*

Hope everyone else is doing well

Happy Hannukah to all my friends =)

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 00:43:10 GMT

Well I made an odd sort of decision to volunteer at the American Red Cross branch in tinton falls. I wanted to do something different and this seems like it could be a very cool thing. I'm also loving my new job I work at UPS on Industrial Ave in Edison. This weekend has been interesting though...I got to witness a bunch of drunk people piss in audreys roomate's fishtank, and luckily there was no fish in it...or that would have been massively interesting...Other than that I went and played on the swings that was a lot of fun..I haven't done anything like that in ages..

One big Hmm....

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 15:50:49 GMT

Wow...its been a while since i've written in my journal...I guess I could say things are doing good now...I've found my way out of my downward spiral....I've made a lot of needed changes in my life...I've dealt with some of my religious issues, and I've managed to erase a few peoples names from my phonebook...The most important thing that I've done is quit my job with Pier 1. They were driving me fucking nuts, and I was getting hurt left and right...plus we can't forget the ever shitty pay rates they had. So now I work for US Security Associates, as a Security Officer. I'm doing all my Armed Guard training as well so I can work as both an officer and an Armed Guard if neccessary. I love working security I used to do it for Raceway park, and I miss it a lot.

Well...I'll finish this update abit later...Time to get some breakfast

My fuck ups

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 20:46:24 GMT

It seems that things are always growing more complicated...and life just loves to think I can handle it. I'm up to working five jobs right now just to pay my bills. I'm floating right now, and it seems like the gods and goddesses are just waiting to flush the toilet on me so I can learn my lessons. I feel like I'm going back to being the person I was before. I'm trying so desperately hard to become better and to progress as a person, but I just can't ....life keeps handing me shit that slaps me back down. Because I can't become a better person everyone else around me is paying for it...I'm failing to do the one goal that I set out to do and that was to teach as many people about paganism as possible. As well one of my best friends is paying dearly for this. I am going to go out of my way to make it work. I have to...or I will fail and life will be a waste of time. I am good, and I must do this. I must prove to alex that I am worthy to be his friend, and mentor. I hope I can fix things.

Stupidity in a Can

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 01:03:30 GMT

Its quite amazing when you think everything is just quite going great for you. Life suddenly throws you this nice little breaking ball, and you get ready to swing, and boom you swing just a little to early and it breaks and you strike out. I could swear that life never leaves me alone, but then again everyone could swear to the same thing. I am truly happy in aspects of the significant other realm. My girlfriend treats me amazingly, and I love her for everything she is. I just can't get over this one thing though....her "supposed" best friend doesn't deserve her as a friend after the stupid things he does. I truly can't even stand being in the same room as him...but, for my baby i'd do anything. I just can't even believe at how idiotic of a person this kid is...he makes me wonder...When Alycia broke her leg...he was with her...and he was complaining about having to take her to the ER...and he was telling her oh...don't worry about it its fine...just put ice on it. Now I almost went blooy apeshit, because I was on the phone w/ her when this all happened. The fact that I had to have her put the phone on speaker and yell at his retarded ass...made me agry to no end. Not more than 4 days later did he jump on her back, and she fell down and hurt her leg even more...and said " oops sorry I forgot you hurt your leg. I mean I knew stupidity existed but for fucks sake....

I don't know if i'm just being idiotic and not realizing how many dumb people are really in the world. I don't know...aside from that whole thing though...work is going...I'm hoping that my managers going to take me with her when she gets her new store. She already told me she wants me to tranfer over, and become one of the Assistant managers there. I'll just have to see how things go. School is being ultra retarded....even more then ever...they put me on Probation again...I'm not sure now...why the fuck they did...but they are like the bane of all existence when it comes to stupidity.

It seems that this world is full of people that make my head hurt....

Thank the Gods and Goddesses that I found Alycia and that I have Sven...

Because right now the two of them are the only ones keeping me from kickin some major ASS!!

Well...I think that covers the bases for now...more to come...as usual...

Per order 10:15- Murphy's Law

If something can go wrong....you bet your fuckin ass its going to!

What if Life wasn't real

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 05:54:47 GMT

I'm wondering as I sit here doing what I do best with my life....contemplating how it will go from here...what I need to do in order to survive and keep my head above the water...avoiding being flushed down the toilet of my life. I have this stupid problem where constantly I can't keep from taking on too much crap in my life, and it makes me into one of the walking dead, because I wind up giving up sleep just to be able to do all the things I want to do. I think my lady is giving me the sign to take a step back and look at my life quickly, and try to coordinate with the flow better. Make some changes, and fix what is my life. On a different note...I'm very tired of all the crap that people have been putting me through because they expect shit out of me. I am not everyones fucking pychiatrist, and I am not there to cater to everyones GOD DAMN needs. I am cranky as hell, and I know it, but I also do know when enough is enough. I'm pulling the cord on this whole charade, and I'm building myself something that is more pleasing to me, and unfortunately in this I know i'm going to cause people to dislike me, but whatever I need to look into my health issues again, because people are pushing me to my stress limits, and I CAN NOT afford to have a seizure now...especially this close to getting my license back. Thats the other thing thats been killing me...since I got my license I had that wonderful ability to go and come as I please...and BAM! it was gone...I'm craving the independence to be able to control my own life again...instead of planning shit around everyone elses time schedule...Granted I love my family, and all the good friends who have helped me out through this..I wouldn't trade them for anything in this world...and to even note...those people are the ones who haven't cause me a lick of stress...They are the ones helping me deal with it...

Sooo...heres my plan...

Priorities:
1) ME!
2)Family/Girlfriend/Friends
3)School
4)Work
5)Paying off my bills
6)The Organization
7)Everything Else

My family, and GF, and Friends mean the world to me....
but I come first for once...

I'm going to start to look for a new job...this bullshit Pier 1 job doesn't cut the bills for crap...my barely 18 hrs a week...and maybe calling me in on days that I can't work...

Its friggin ridiculous...
I'm just fed up...

I need a week vacation after school ends...to just vegg out..

I will survive this, and if I can't I'm gonna go get a Tattoo, and more piercings..
well I want the tattoo, but the piercings *smirk*

anyway...thats pretty much it...shit will always
get better...and to anyone who actually read this...
I ask why?

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 18:43:04 GMT

It seems the tides of times have been spinning their wheels, and parents are not raising their kids properly anymore. Judgement has become something of little value to people. Instead of being a bit smarter, and have a strand or two more of common sense they decide that they will just take whatever is given to them. Why not make your own life....don't be stupid about things. It seems that some people reading this might think I'm referring to a specific situation...I'm referring to many many many of my friends in actuality...I've seen bad judgement in many forms...Why is it that it seems that somehow its a combined fault of everyone...why is our world crumbling

Bah! Today is good! I got a new job woo! its better than making no money

Well I can only hope that what I think will happen won't and people will become better people

What is going on?

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 09:34:05 GMT

They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison

Following the rights movements
You clamped on
With your iron fists
Drugs became conveniently
Available for all the kids
Following the rights movements
You clamped on
With your iron fists
Drugs became conveniently
Available for all the kids

I buy my crack
I smack my b****
Right here in Hollywood

Nearly 2 million Americans
Are incarcerated
In the prison system
Prison system
Prison system of the US

They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
(For you and me
To live in)
Another prison system
Another prison system
Another prison system
(For you and me
To live in)

Minor drug offenders
Fill your prisons
You don't even flinch
All our taxes paying
For your wars
Against the new non-rich
Minor drug offenders
Fill your prisons
You don't even flinch
All our taxes paying
For your wars
Against the new non-rich

I buy my crack
I smack my b****
Right here in Hollywood

The percentage of Americans
In the prison system
Prison system
Has doubled since 1985

They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
(For you and me
To live in)
Another prison system
Another prison system

Another prison system
(For you and me
To live in)
For you and I
For you and I
For you and I

They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
For you and me
Oh baby, you and me

All research and successful
Drug policy show
That treatment
Should be increased
And law enforcement decreased
While abolishing
Mandatory minimum sentences
All research and successful
Drug policy show
That treatment
Should be increased
And law enforcement decreased
While abolishing
Mandatory minimum sentences

Utilizing drugs to pay for
Secret wars around the world
Drugs are now your global policy
Now you police the globe

I buy my crack
I smack my b****
Right here in Hollywood

Drug money is
Used to rig elections
And train brutal
Corporate sponsored
Dictators around the world

They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
(For you and me
To live in)
Another prison system
Another prison system
Another prison system
(For you and me
To live in)
For you and I
For you and I
For you and I
They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
They're trying to
Build a prison
For you and me
Oh baby, you and me

I've been beseeching the help of various gods and goddesses to help me through this rut of shit that has been spat upon me. I feel like I'm trapped and I truly have nowhere to go right now. At least I'm pretty sure shit can't get worse in the referring situation...on a different note...Moms up and walking again...we've got her home instead of going to the rehab...shes not 100% walking, and she still has stitches and staples in her knee, but i'm sure glad to have her back home. I've really missed her. I made a realisation that if my father passed away I'd cry and i'd miss him, but if my mother died....I don't know what I'd do...

Well I'm just glad that things are getting ready to turn for the better...I have to believe they will...Also Schools going good love the professors....My uncles coming down soon to visit I can't wait to see him...its one of his once in a blue visits. I'm also starting this American Heart Association Diet monday...my fathers been using it for years on and off...it can help you drop 10 lbs in 1 week...its just a very hard diet to follow....

Lots of Vegetables...Fruits...and milk and bannannas on one day ..cabbage soup...it works...I've seen it...I'm goaling fo 2 weeks...to drop 15-20 lbs working out along side that should definately help out.

I also did something I haven't done in ages....I got on my bicycle...felt so weird....

Wish you all well!!

-Cory-

I need Sleep

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 02:06:55 GMT

Wow....I need to actually get some sleep....I feel like the world is rotating around me and I have no clue whats up...didn't hit me till like 4 pm...I guess that overdrive rush wore off...I guess eating more might help to...I'm eating like 1 meal a day...No time for anything...Well today could have been a hell of a lot worse when I look at it...I had multiple arguments with my dad varying from everything like a stupid a pen....to how much he doesn't think about everyone else around him...so I am officially ready to pack my bags and move out. I am continuing my job search for a job that will pay me a decent wage...I might have to just take one of the full time jobs and work around it...since all these part time jobs barely offer 8 dollars an hour...I can't pay squat on that....Not when I'm trying to save up to buy a new truck come june...when I get my license back...Well..I think after class tommorrow I'm going to just dissapear from my fathers sight and sleep at someone elses house till saturday...Have to be home sunday ...my fathers taking me to Arirang...because he wants to go...I'm not gonna turn down a free meal =)...specially one there...well I guess i'm gonna try and do the whole sleep thing again...

Hope everyone else is doing well! Love yall!!

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 15:58:45 GMT

Purple! You have purple eyes! You're a dreamer,
artist, poet, whatever. You enjoy all forms of
art and literature, and tend to be quite good
at creating them as well.

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Thu, 22 Jan 2004 15:51:40 GMT

I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit show
I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit shame
I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit
Bit, bit, bit
(2x)

I'm just the meaning of Pi
Just the meaning of Pi
Just the meaning of Pi
(2x)

War!
Fuck the system!
War!
Fuck the system
Fuck the system
War!
Fuck the system!
War!
I need to fuck the Sys
I need to fuck the Sys
I need to fuck the Sys

I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit show
I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit shame
I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit
Bit, bit, bit
(2x)

I'm just the meaning of Pi
Just the meaning of Pi
Just the meaning of Pi
(2x)

War!
Fuck the system!
War!
Fuck the system
Fuck the system
War!
Fuck the system!
War!
I need to fuck the Sys
I need to fuck the Sys
I need to fuck the Sys

You need to fuck the sys
You need to fuck the sys
You need to fuck the sys
You need to fuck the sys

I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit show
I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit shame
I'm, but a little bit, bit, bit
Bit, bit, bit

I need to fuck the system!
I need to fuck the sys
I need to fuck the system!
We all need to fuck the system

Today is the start of what I hope will be a better day...Going to see mom again later today I hope she won't be in as much pain as yesterday. I also get to go to the one class I'm taking this semster that I'm looking forward to: Literature of the Occult...Everyone says its a pretty cool class and that its definately up my alley. I'm not in my depressive mood right now its finally passed...I slept it off...Gonna hope for a good day today..Off to meditate, and get a cup of Cofee.

Oh BOY

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 05:05:30 GMT

Well....this is the first time in quite a while i've been able to sit down and actually write shit down...I've got soo much running through my head...I just keep telling myself that there are plenty of people who are worse off than I am...just suck it up...I almost cried earlier though...I mean I know my mother is fine in the hospital its jsut her recovering from this operation...Shes in complete agony and the fact of it is when I see her crying from the pain...I feel it too...I've realised for the first time that my mother isn't truly this strong person I've made her out to be in my mind...even though shes been through all the TMJ stuff, and the 3 knee surgeries so far....I walked into her room, and shes hooked up to 4 different machines...2 IV's one for the transfusion, and the other for the Dalauder shes on. the Icing machine to keep her knee iced...a machine that massages her legs to keep her circulation up....and a respiratory monitor. She can't get out of bed...they also have her hooked up to a Decatheter because she can't walk...I have never seen my mother like this...the mere thought of it makes me cry...I love my mother and I can't bear to see what shes going through....2 more days till they can let her try and walk....Everything else thats going on I truly couldn't give 2 shits about....All the noura & candace shit....beth and cheryl's shit...my father being an asshole to me 24/7...people telling me left and right that I can go fuck myself when I've not done anything wrong...well I'd like to tell some people to go fuck themselves...its amazing...I can feel it happen...for craps sake its like I'm a seamless version of someone with two personalities...one who cares and listens and another who just wants to be left alone...its a war....bah...fuck this shit....I'm stong enough to handle all this...I'm not a child anymore...

Life at its strangest time

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 07:42:56 GMT

Life is truly amazing some days. It shows us the wonderful ways of the world, and it shows us the true reality of things. I sit here and wonder when things will be at a lull. I enjoy to the fullest extent listening and helping where I can, but at the same time I have to be prejudice about who I deal with. It just seems that on my lonely road I have found an ally who will stand by myside. I wait patiently as the day comes that things will form the better path of my life.

Here I stand awaiting my destiny ready to hold the sword of justice, and contempt
Holding the tranference of pain into pleasure....

Pain is the power for existence it is what brings us back to reality, and shows us
that strength lies in enlightenment through pain.

Let the pain begin, as the pleasure reigns ourlives...

I'm here for the pain...the ring is just a souvenir

Wed, 03 Sep 2003 21:55:17 GMT

Today is a better day...My emotions will pass...I'll fix things...I have to...Besides spending 2 and a half hours in the bloody DMV with this new retarded system. Where you have to show: 6 points worth of identification as well as proof of address. I mean its crazy. The DMV I now consider the BANE OF ALL EXISTENCE!!! ITS EBUL!

Anyway...I hope everyone else is doing ok...
I finally got my classes squared away:

Advanced Statistics - Tues & Thurs
Human Growth & Development II - Thurs
Cultural Anthropology - Wednesday
American Civilization - Wednesday
Political Science - NO Classes (Just write a paper course)

Fucked up

Wed, 03 Sep 2003 05:55:54 GMT

Why does the world seem like a revolving door of problems with no end in sight. I can't take it...I took a week vacation to get away from the bullshit and the only damn things that worked out was I can deal with my parents again. I got fed up with Heathers bullshit I laid it out for her...I can't, don't and won't tolerate people fucking with my head and teasing and screwing about with me. She told me she was interested...some time went by we talked and I thought things were great...we wound up hooking up and cuddled for like 8 hours together...I thought I was dreaming I thought I had what I wanted...the world was beautiful again...till she told me that was nothing and we are still friends..because "she was drunk..." BULL FUCKIN SHIT SHE WAS!!!..She was even more sober than I was...I cried and yet I pursued her...she hurt me and I liked her too much...I finally exploded I had it...I made it stop, because it hurt too much....

My best friend doesn't even trust me anymore...I've never been hurt as this did before....the one man I thought would never leave my side has drifted from me...my heart is slowly breaking...Piece by piece...Why can we not fix this...are we that stupid...Can I cry please...I want it all to wash away...I want to turn back time...I miss my best friend...I miss his companionship..hes not with me anymore...

What shall I do with myself...I have these plans...This beautiful vision...I have questions...with answers that only I can give...Why can I not have what I want...I have a business...its doing well...I've got 1 semester left at brookdale...I need to graduate....I want to, but I'm afraid of the real world...

I heard a noise...I climbed the steps...and when I got there I saw a man...A man who wasn't there...

Why oh why

Thu, 24 Jul 2003 23:08:26 GMT

Why oh why does life feel the need to use trial and error as a means of making and forming our lives. I wish that things could be simpler. I am tired of the menial stuff I want to move on to the important stuff in life. I want to be done with college already, but its like a roadblock of useless knowledge that we all must stop to sort through for a few years. Its bloody fuckin amazing that its mandatory to graduate high school to work at Mcdonalds and Wendy's...Did you really need to sit through highschool english to say " Would you like fries with that". Soon enough they will want people to have 2 years of college just so you can say " Will that be paper of plastic". Fuck this society we live in. All these menial bullshit, Fuck Sadaam, and Fuck Osama, Fuck this place we call home. If this is all there is to life you can fuckin keep it. Stress makes us do funny things ya'know...I don't even know where I'm going with this rant...All I want is a green flag so I can move past this crap...I've seriously been debating whether or not to just fuckin say " screw college at this point". How is college going to help me own my own business. Is it going to magically say " here you go *POOF*, Fuck no its going to just say heres your ghetto ass diploma from Crackdale have a nice fuckin life". I'm still going to have to work my way up...*sigh*....Why is life so shitty some days...why can't things just be a little less complicated....why does there have to be so much drama...*Beats the drama with a fuckin sledge hammer*....Now to end my post on a good note....FUCK!

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 04:57:54 GMT

So today was interesting day, but everything was very good.
I got a job part time to go along with my business so the government
can't hock me over not making any money this year because all the business
money is under the table. So I now work as a part time gas attendant..could it get to be an easier job than that making 8 dollars an hr. working 24 hrs a week.

Good Shit!

Also tonight it started to rain and dan being the putz that he is ..didn't realize that a car needs gas to run and got stranded on the side of the road while going towards my house. So we had to turn around go back and bring him to a gas station...quite an amusing way to spend an hr..So that about wraps up my wonderful eventful day.

Sat, 19 Apr 2003 06:48:19 GMT

Nino Lilo Lithali Lestobethany

Hmm..not sure why I posted that, but it means Move, Let me Pass...
*Ponders*

Sat, 19 Apr 2003 06:44:44 GMT

You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn
to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal
blue water, near the sea is where you belong.

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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Cool!

Sat, 19 Apr 2003 06:39:47 GMT

Had a fun time at the beach froze our asses off watching the huge ass waves for a lil bit it was pretty cool. I'm in a great mood even though I have more papers then imaginable to write. Can't wait till schools out couple more weeks!

Hope everyone else is doing as good as I am!

Blessed Be all!

Mon, 07 Apr 2003 00:02:33 GMT

Today I managed to get through the day without encountering 1 single negative person I worked and I had time to myself to think things out and find my answers and I need to meditate now, because I think I have the answers. I am so glad that I have found someone who is willing and able to help me on my journey. I am beggining my journey to find myself and to rid myself of Negative energies and learn better how to handle them. I want to thank Heather and Troy for introducing me to hopefully my new mentor.

Thank you Everyone!
Blessed Be!

Sat, 05 Apr 2003 00:06:31 GMT

Life manageges to get better then take a complete fuckin swan dive off a 5th story walk up into concrete pavement. My Grandmother is bleeding internally from her intestines and its not stopping. Shes in the hospital and my mother is worried sick and my mom has enough going on her plate. My grandfather is in the hospital for diabetic problems again and now hes getting to the point where he can no longer drive. I'm very worried and I feel like I am powerless. On top of all of this a good friend of mine is going through something and won't tell me and when i told her I really wasn't able to help her right now because of all i got going on and then she has the god damn ordasity to tell me I'm not a friend to her. Well fuck that I've listened to her and given her enough advice for a lifetime. I swear I'm coming back to my original thing where friends are no longer that they are foreign to me. I feel like locking myself in a closet and never coming out. Why can't things ever be good..fuck!

Tue, 01 Apr 2003 04:32:39 GMT

College professors need to stop thinking they are the cats meow. Today my Developmental Psychology professor threw me out of her class, because I made a statement against one of her opinions of Piagets theories of child development. So I did what any normal human would do. I went to the Head of the Psychology Department and told him what happened and wrote a complaint against her and now hes going to investigate her teaching methods and evaluate if action should be taken against her. I also dropped her class and The Dept. Head is allowing me to take an Independent study in its place and I'll write a paper and he will review it. So it worked out but, I hope the bitch professor gets fired.

On a different note the people with the car incident agreed to settle at paying half each and they are going to sign a letter releasing each other from any and all costs after this point.

My mom goes in for surgery tommorrow also I get to take her to the hospital for it.
I hope everything goes well with her everyone just wish her luck..its not a very serious operation but it will reduce her suffering greatly if it works. If not shes going to have to go through a very gruesome 6 months of rehabilitation and surgery. So please just hope for the best.

Sun, 30 Mar 2003 21:47:18 GMT

On a better note I've gotten a few customers for my business now and hopefully I'll get some more so I can make money and get some success with this.